Showing posts with label I Chronicles. Show all posts
Showing posts with label I Chronicles. Show all posts

Monday, May 24, 2010

Monday Morning Meditation #42: Chosen To Prophesy

I Chronicles is an interesting litany (chronicling, if you will) of the tribes and people of Israel and the generations of off-spring and what they did. In all these listings, one in particular caught my eye. I found it in Chapter 25, Verse 1:
"David, together with the commanders of the army, set apart some of the sons of Asaph, Heman and Jeduthun for the ministry of prophesying, accompanied by harps, lyres and cymbals."
The rest of the chapter lists the individuals selected and their families. Few details are given about them or any indication provided as to why they were the chosen ones.

Reading: I Chronicles 25:1

Meditation: This was truly a puzzling verse for me, and after reflection, it remains puzzling. Up until this point in the Bible, it seems that God selected the prophets, sometimes not even in keeping with what they would have preferred to do. Now, we are told that David selected individuals for the ministry of prophesying. That raises some questions for me that I do not know how to begin to go about answering, including
(1) How did David know whom to select?

(2) How was it that these three families were prolific producers of prophets?

(3) Were these really prophets or some other ministry related to prophesizing that was part of a worship serve?
Asking these questions led me to another set of questions related not to David's time, but to our own:
(1) Leading evangelists, especially those with large congregations, are often taken as modern day prophets; are they really? (The Oh, God! Movie comes to mind here, where God instructs John Denver to tell what of the leading evangelists that He is not happy with his profit-oriented "ministry.")

(2) How can we tell when the word that is coming to us through others is the Word of God and not a result of someone being human, misled, or deliberately used by a negative power?

(3) How can we, as individual believers, know that what we sometimes "hear" from what we think is the Holy Spirit or even that locutions (for those who receive them) are truly from God? (In the absence of any other confirmation, the latter always send me scrambling to a priest for interpretation.)
So, I will pass along these questions to you and hope for some enlightenment from the blogging world. I clearly understand not clearly this time and especially with this verse.

That is far as I can go with you this Monday morning. I must retire to private prayer to thank God that He does send prophets to us and in other ways shares with us what He would have us know and do, to praise Him for His ability to reach through the "cloud of unknowing" to His often confused people walking the earth, to repent for those times that I have been deceived by false prophecy and my willingness to listen without questioning (fortunately, that does not happen often since I am a skeptic by nature), and to ask Him to help me see and understand more clearly what it is He would have me know and do. Now I retire to spend as much time as I can in contemplation, my favorite part of the day, letting God take over the direction in which my relationship with Him moves.

I will leave you to your prayer and contemplation, but first, I would like to bring to your attention a Monday morning prayer post that you might enjoy:

Fr. Austin Fleming, priest of the Archdiocese of Boston and pastor in Concord, Massachusetts, posts a prayer each Monday morning that he calls "Monday Morning Offering." I enjoy his prayers very much. I hope you also will find them inspirational. He has graciously given me permission to include a link to his blog on my Monday Morning Meditation posts.

For additional inspiration throughout the week, I would point out two sets of blogs: (1) the list of devotional blogs that follow the enumeration of Monday Morning Meditations on the sidebar of this blog and (2) my blogroll, where I am following a number of inspirational priests and writers about spiritual matters. I learn so very much from all these people. I highly recommend them to you.

Monday, May 17, 2010

Monday Morning Meditation #41: They Drew Up in Battle Formation

I barely stumbled past one additional chapter in I Chronicles this week before coming to sudden rest at a passage that speaks so much to the world situation today. The battle line described in chapter 19, verses 1-9 is not unlike the one I find myself constantly straddling in my work around the world, especially in my two previous jobs. In this passage, Nahash, King of the Ammonites, died and was succeeded by his son, Hanun. King David, to whom Nahash had shown kindness while alive, wanted to honor Nahash. So, he sent a delegation of men to Hanun to express condolences. Hanun, however, was suspicious, accused the men of being spies, dishonored them, and sent them back to Israeli territory. Thus, the Ammonites became a "stench in David's nostrils." Soon, both sides had drawn up in battle formation.



Reading: I Chronicles 19: 1-9.



Meditation: Oh, how well I understand the kind of misunderstanding that the Hanun and the Ammonites exhibited and the resultant dismay of David! I have felt this kind of dismay "on my hide," to use a Russian expression, which in this case is quite apropros.



Let's go back to the year 1984. At that time, the world was frozen into a state of Cold War between two super powers: the United States of America and the Union of Soviet Socialist Republics. Neither side trusted the other. On the USA side, we spoke of balance of power -- and we worked on ways of spying from the outside: from space. On the USSR, they spoke of parity -- and they worked on ways of spying from the inside: through seeding informants into American society. Battle lines were formed in spite of the rhetoric of peace and parity.



Most Americans are not aware that the Russians were as much concerned about America attacking it as Americans were about Russian attacks. I had the unique opportunity to be in Russia during the Cold War (multiple times and for long periods of time). I heard a Red Army general espouse the concepts of parity. I interacted with various peace committees; the vice president of one, Pyotr Volkovich, became a professional colleague and personal friend, and together we established one of the very first student exchanges and the very first one between Belarus and an American school district, in this case, Portland, Oregon. These were positive, learning experiences for me.



I also had a negative experience, one that immediately came to mind when I came across this Scripture reading. In the early 1980s, I was one of only a handful of American scholars allowed into the USSR for research and study. As Fulbright and IREX scholars, we were allowed foreign language classes. While I had already achieved an easy fluency in Russian, I was eager to take advantage of this wonderful benefit, especially since the University of Moscow language classes are some of the most effective in the world. The Department of Russian As a Foreign Language welcomed me and set me up for a placement test. Part of that test was a written essay on any topic of our choosing. Since my research project was Siberian dialects of Russian, about which I had already done as much research as possible in the USA, I decided to write about that. I quickly sketched out the relationship between the main dialectal groups and linguistic theories underlying dialect development, maturation, and deviation from the standard language over time. As I dashed off this information, the proctor's face took on a stormy expression that grew darker the more I wrote. As I approached the middle of the page, she suddenly grabbed the paper and ripped it away from me. To this day, I vividly remember the scratch my pen made across the rest of the paper as the paper flew out from under my hand. "A vy shto," she demanded to know, "shpionka?" (What are you, a spy?) While I considered the comment to be a compliment to my language skills, the reaction reflected the thinking of the times: any American totally fluent in Russian must be a spy. (We had similar concerns about Russians.) And there I sat looking at a battle line being drawn up and being very innocent of anything of which I might be accused. I was no more guilty than were David's men.



In my travels and jobs, I have lived primarily among America's so-called enemies. It was not always easy for me to see them as such. When I completed my dissertation defense in Moscow, I said something that people who were present have remembered to this day: "Ya snachala priekhala v Soyuz, chtoby posmotret' na litso vraga, no v techenie 20 let, ya ne nashla ni odnogo vraga, tol'ko druzej." (I first came to the Soviet Union to look upon the face of the enemy, but in 20 years I have not found one enemy, only friends.) That people would remember those words tells me how eager they were to be friends, not enemies.



One of my favorite memories from Russia (post-Soviet days) was dinner with the vice president of one university in Belarus. In the course of the dinner, we discovered that we had been counterparts during the Cold War. I had worked in the US Army as an officer specializing in USSR Order of Battle, and he had worked in the Red Army as an officer specializing in USA Order of Battle. Startled, he gasped, "You were my enemy," to which I replied, "and you were mine." He demurred, saying that he had been no one's enemy, to which I pointed out that neither had been I. (I have related the story, along with a couple similar ones, in greater detail here: Three Vignettes and One Thought about an Enemy.)



After the Cold War, I began to spend time in the "hot war" countries of the Middle East. Very quickly, the presence of similar misunderstandings became obvious. Our societies' structure, values, and expectations are so different that not having misunderstandings would be unusual. Add misunderstanding to distrust, and suddenly we have just what the situation is today: countries drawn up in battle formation.



These experiences -- those from today and the ones from the Old Testament -- point to the fact that our entire world needs to learn to trust. That trust is not going to spring up at the international level, however, unless it is cultivated at the interpersonal level, within families, within social organizations, even within our churches. In all of these places, one can find an astonishing lack of trust among people who are relatives, colleagues, and/or friends. If we cannot cultivate trust at the friend/colleague/relative level, how on earth are nations supposed to cultivate it at the foreigner/stranger level.



That is far as I can go with you this Monday morning. I must retire to private prayer to thank God for holding our world together for so long in spite of our attempts to pull it apart, to praise Him for all the examples of trust, mistrust, and love He has given us through His Word -- and His words of guidance to us, to repent for those times that I may have contributed to the development of mistrust on any level, and to ask Him to lead all of us into a world where people trust people and no battle lines are to be found. Now I retire to spend as much time as I can in contemplation, my favorite part of the day, letting God take over the direction in which my relationship with Him moves.



I will leave you to your prayer and contemplation, but first, I would like to bring to your attention a Monday morning prayer post that you might enjoy:

Fr. Austin Fleming, priest of the Archdiocese of Boston and pastor in Concord, Massachusetts, posts a prayer each Monday morning that he calls "Monday Morning Offering." I enjoy his prayers very much. I hope you also will find them inspirational. He has graciously given me permission to include a link to his blog on my Monday Morning Meditation posts.



For additional inspiration throughout the week, I would point out two sets of blogs: (1) the list of devotional blogs that follow the enumeration of Monday Morning Meditations on the sidebar of this blog and (2) my blogroll, where I am following a number of inspirational priests and writers about spiritual matters. I learn so very much from all these people. I highly recommend them to you.

Monday, May 3, 2010

Monday Morning Meditation #39: Saul Fell on His Sword

Sorry about posting this a little later than usual for those of you on the East Coast of the USA and even father east. Normally, I post a little after midnight my time in California; however, yesterday was a very full day, and I needed some rest. So, I am posting this first thing Monday morning my time, which is well into the morning elsewhere. (There are some time disadvantages to living in California, but given all the other blessings, the timing issues that come up once in a while are not even an annoyance.)

Where I stopped reading this morning gave a new meaning for me to the expression "fall on one's sword." In I Chronicles 10, Saul's death is chronicled. (Sorry, could not prevent myself from latching onto that word choice.) When it is clear that he has lost not only his three sons in battle but also the battle itself, he kills himself, rather than being taken prisoner, by committing suicide. The means? He falls on his sword, running it through himself. The final two verses read:

"Saul died because he was unfaithful to the LORD; he did not keep the word of the LORD and even consulted a medium for guidance, and did not inquire of the LORD. So the LORD put him to death and turned the kingdom over to David son of Jesse."

Reading: I Chronicles 10: 13-14.

Meditation: The phrase about Saul dying because he did not turn to God but rather to a medium, among other other ways of departing from the Lord, reminded me that for some time I have thought about writing a post about my experiences with Tarot card reading during my many years as an atheist. Now I will write that post sooner rather than later since I cannot do much more than allude to a few associated things here in spite of the whole history rapid-fire unfolding in my memory as I meditate on these two verses.

Suffice it for me to say that I was a good Tarot card reader, as was my brother. What we predicted did happen. Every single thing, good or bad. We became pretty well known in our circles for this ability, and people we did not even know began to seek us out. Reports came that our readings even for those people turned out to be highly accurate. I used a commercial pack of cards, but my brother, Willie, preferred to draw his own. (I have about as much art talent as I have homemaking talent; quantifying either requires the use of negative numbers.)

Willie burned his cards when he came to faith many years before I did. I did not understand this at all and continued for many more years to provide readings for friends and even strangers. I never commercialized this "skill," i.e. never charged for it. I received my "reward" by a sense of satisfaction at seeing the predictions come true. After my conversion, I, being less dramatic than my brother, simply tossed the cards in the trash.

Why did I throw the cards away? Because I realized that I had been playing with something very sinister, even being manipulated by something sinister. A number of my New Age friends, who consider themselves spiritual and even in some cases faith-filled, see nothing wrong with Tarot cards and consider my "accurate" reading of them to be a talent and my repudiation of them to be too strict an interpretation of Scripture (somewhere -- and I will have to chase down the reference before I do a post on this topic -- the Bible, I believe in the NT, refers to Tarot cards as an evil). I cannot agree with my New Age friends for I have now seen Evil in other situations parading in traditional spiritual guises; those situations have only reinforced my sense that it was Satan, or some version of Evil, that was guiding the layout of the cards each time such that I was able to produce an accurate reading, i.e. a prediction that came true. What a great way to keep me from God -- providing me with the self-satisfaction that I had a bit of the greater universe under my control! (And that, along with other things and my own obliviousness to God, even though God had worked many miracles through me -- I called those Serendipity -- and had handed me a parachute every time I took a nose dive off a cliff -- I called that Luck, kept me from seeing God in my life for decades.)

That is far as I can go with you this Monday morning. I must retire to private prayer, to thank God for never giving up on me and finally conking me on the head to get my attention, to praise Him for winning that battle between Good and Evil (the one that had my soul at stake), to repent not for my having turned to Evil for guidance in the past (for that I have already repented and been forgiven) but for those times that I simply forge ahead on my own and forget to "inquire of the Lord," and to ask God to keep conking me on the head when I forget the most important thing in this way. Now, as the sun is already beginning its ascent into full morning, I will spend as much time as I can in contemplation, my favorite part of the day, letting God take over the direction in which my relationship with Him moves.

I will now leave you to your prayer and contemplation, but first, I would like to bring to your attention a Monday morning prayer post that you might enjoy:
Fr. Austin Fleming, priest of the Archdiocese of Boston and pastor in Concord, Massachusetts, posts a prayer each Monday morning that he calls "Monday Morning Offering." I enjoy his prayers very much. I hope you also will find them inspirational. He has graciously given me permission to include a link to his blog on my Monday Morning Meditation posts.

For additional inspiration throughout the week, I would point out two sets of blogs: (1) the list of devotional blogs that follow the enumeration of Monday Morning Meditations on the sidebar of this blog and (2) my blogroll, where I am following a number of inspirational priests and writers about spiritual matters. I learn so very much from all these people. I highly recommend them to you.

Monday, April 26, 2010

Monday Morning Meditation #38: The Power of Prayer

back home, well, with a normal morning in front of me, I am able, after a week away, to return to my regular Monday Morning Meditation post. I don't skip the prayer when I am out of town, but making the post is sometimes not possible because of lack of access to the Internet in some cases when I travel.

This week I stopped in the very next chapter of I Chronicles although I had not expected to, given that Chronicles, on the surface, seems to be a listing of genealogy. Slipped in between the lines of genealogy, however, are some real gems, like last week's prayer of Jabez and this week's discussion of how the the Reubenites, the Gadites, and the half-tribe of Manasseh, which had 44,760 men ready for military service—able-bodied men who could handle shield and sword, who could use a bow, and who were trained for battle, waged war against the Hagrites, Jetur, Naphish and Nodab and won because God "answered their prayers because they trusted in him." I found that last comment interesting.

Reading: I Chronicles 5: 18-22

Meditation: Many times I have run into people, including those in my church, who pray because they think they should, it has become habit, prayer is expected of them, or they are following the lead of others. Maybe because I quietly and inconspicuously as possible slid into the church at a later time in life, I never picked up on the "could," "should", "ought", and "everyone is doing it" of prayer. I would not bother to pray if I thought that God was not listening, would not answer, or was untrustworthy. Clearly, based on this passage, trust is a key ingredient in our relationship with God and with our prayer life.

For me, trust is how I began my relationship with God. At the end of my two-week conversion period (yep, I was stubborn enough to fight it for two intensive weeks), I asked for two miracles if God truly wanted me to believe He exists. The prayer (which at the time I would not even have admitted was a prayer) went something like, "I will believe You exist if You find a job for the employee's wife for whom I have been searching unsuccessfully for a job for months while the family remains geographically separated for nearly four years now, and, while You are at it, if You will heal employee X, who has been out sick three days out of every five for the past six months because of a chronic back problem, I will start attending church." I don't know what I expected to happen. The overwhelming sense of God's 24/7 presence, in my mind, either had to be eliminated as a psychological aberration or I had to yield to that presence, admitting its very real existence, but I was not going to yield without a fight. On the one hand, I thought these people deserved divine help should there be a Divinity. On the other hand, I still had my doubts. (I was a strong doubter.) And perhaps there was a subconscious desire to test whether that presence I was feeling, that God I did not want to admit existed, was a kind God (should He exist, that is). It was an odd period of time in my life, one that I had little control over. God's response was near immediate. When I arrived at work, there was an email to me from the director of another division, saying that he had learned that we had someone on our applicant list whom he could use immediately: the wife for whom I had been trying so hard and so unsuccessfully to find a job. At that point, I realized that the presence (Presence) I was dealing with was not only kind but also very powerful. I re-thought my bargaining about attending church and made a promise: "I will start attending church immediately and trust You to heal the employee for whom I requested help." Obviously, yielding was the only way to go, given what I now understood. And I kept my promise. I have only missed two Masses in nearly four years, one because I was sick and one because I was in a highly Islamic land and could not find a Christian church. As for that sick employee, I really did trust God to heal him, and my trust was not misplaced. That employee worked for me for another eight months and never missed a day of work after that prayer. I see him occasionally even now although he is currently working in another division, and his health remains superb. Trust God? You bet!

That is far as I can go with you this Monday morning. I must retire to private prayer, to thank God for being so trustworthy that I can give anything over to him no matter how precious to me, to praise Him for all the miracles He continues to pump into my life, and to repent for those (fortunately, rare) times that I have taken a problem back after giving it to Him. Since I have no petitions this morning, God typically giving me help before I have a chance to ask, I will spend as much time as I can in contemplation, my favorite part of the day, letting God take over the direction in which my relationship with Him moves. (I may have a petition tomorrow morning as Noelle undergoes surgery, but God has watched over her for 33 years and pulled her safely through nearly 40 surgeries, the first 29 years without my asking. I trust Him to take care of her this time, too.)

I will now leave you to your prayer and contemplation, but first, I would like to bring to your attention a Monday morning prayer post that you might enjoy:
Fr. Austin Fleming, priest of the Archdiocese of Boston and pastor in Concord, Massachusetts, posts a prayer each Monday morning that he calls "Monday Morning Offering." I enjoy his prayers very much. I hope you also will find them inspirational. He has graciously given me permission to include a link to his blog on my Monday Morning Meditation posts.

For additional inspiration throughout the week, I would point out two sets of blogs: (1) the list of devotional blogs that follow the enumeration of Monday Morning Meditations on the sidebar of this blog and (2) my blogroll, where I am following a number of inspirational priests and writers about spiritual matters. I learn so very much from all these people. I highly recommend them to you.

Monday, April 5, 2010

Monday Morning Meditation #36: The Difficulties Leaders Have in Following God

After reading about all the kings who either did good but allowed the worship of Baal or did evil in the sight of the Lord, I began to wonder whether it is possible for royalty to be good/godly. While that may be a discussion for another place and time, with someone possessing greater knowledge of the topic than I, the failure after failure, especially with individuals who started out successfully, resonated with me. And so, I stopped my reading this week at the end of II Kings.

Reading: II Kings 7-25

Meditation: On a daily basis, I attempt to develop the leadership skills of a couple dozen middle and senior-level managers, using concepts associated with servant leadership. While one aspect of developing good leaders involves teaching them how to care about their people, understand those who work for them, and follow and apply organizational rules and regulations, there is another part that is rarely, if ever, discussed widely: God's role in our work.

Personally, I am fortunate. All the senior managers who report to me are believers and willing to discuss issues in spiritual terms, as well as pragmatic and legalistic ones.

The senior managers are not so fortunate. They must provide direction to a range of junior managers, some of whom are committed to personal ambitions that lead to self-centered/self-promoting decisions. Reaching down to these new managers, to help them understand that any decision that does not put God at its center is not likely to be the best possible decision in the long run, is difficult. First, organizational policies do not permit these kinds of discussions, the closest we can get being a discussion of servant leadership, which reflects principles from all three Abrahamic religions. Second, some junior managers, particularly those without any spiritual beliefs, do not want this kind of discussion; they do not want to think about what role God should play in their/our work. Separation of church and state can make leading godly lives as managers and leaders very difficult.

And then, admittedly, there are those times when I really do not want to listen. I know what God is telling me, but just for the moment, I really want to have my anger over some event, some person's failure to perform, or some behavior that has irritated me. And so I turn a deaf ear -- after which, of course, I feel horribly guilty and penitent. But that moment did take place, and there is no way to return to it and make it not take place. One can apologize, take actions to remediate/alleviate and otherwise try to mitigate the damage, pray, go to confession, and otherwise be willing to set things right with God and any individuals involved, but the fact that these moments occur (and probably will continue to occur) point out just how fallible one can become in a leadership position -- and I am far, far, far below the level of king. So, I find it easy to understand how the kings of the Old Testament failed and how the kings of today (whether royalty or just business/political leaders) fail.

There are also those times that the God-directed decision is not the popular decision or even the accepted decision by the uppermost level of management. Surprisingly, those are the easiest situations for me although they have not always been so. With the passage of time and the following of God's direction where I have been able to discern it, I have found that "selling" the "right" decision is possible. Moreover, God rewards us when we follow Him. I have often told subordinate leaders that sometimes to be a good leader one must be willing to lose one's job for making the right, rather than the popular or required, decision. I know whereof I speak. I have lost a job in that manner -- and God found me a better one. Since then, I have had complete trust in God when it comes to work. I don't have to watch out for me because God watches out for me.

And that is far as I can go with you this Monday morning. I must retire to prayer to ask God to intervene when I want to keep my anger or otherwise react in a non-servant, un-godly manner at work (or at home), to thank Him for his daily guidance, to praise Him for the wonderful ways in which He has been present for me and for the leaders in my organization on an every-minute basis, and to repent for those times that I have ignored His presence through inattention or desire to "do my own thing." After that, I will spend as much time as I can in contemplation, my favorite part of the day, letting God take over the direction in which my relationship with Him moves.

I will now leave you to your prayer and contemplation, but first, I would like to bring to your attention a Monday morning prayer post that you might enjoy:
Fr. Austin Fleming, priest of the Archdiocese of Boston and pastor in Concord, Massachusetts, posts a prayer each Monday morning that he calls "Monday Morning Offering." I enjoy his prayers very much. I hope you also will find them inspirational. He has graciously given me permission to include a link to his blog on my Monday Morning Meditation posts.

For additional inspiration throughout the week, I would point out two sets of blogs: (1) the list of devotional blogs that follow the enumeration of Monday Morning Meditations on the sidebar of this blog and (2) my blogroll, where I am following a number of inspirational priests and writers about spiritual matters. I learn so very much from all these people. I highly recommend them to you.